❝c'mon get happy❞

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Hearing about subject combinations worried me. It's making taking history so much more undesirable and I don't know I just really really love it it is like a passion I'm just so driven to do things for it even if I hate it but the topics are the worst I absolutely loathe learning about history in the latest few decades they're terrible to learn and I hate Southeast Asia and learning about our village like ways and whatnot and I'm been dissuaded from taking H2 History but I love history so much I can't describe to you how much I would go and read about it how much I want to know about it I guess I could use the information in GP but that's not the point I just love History but I know I'm not going to be good at it if I take it for JC and idk whether I want to pursue it further if you search up jobs related to a history major they'll tell you about being a teacher or like being a manager which is like what my mom does and I don't know if I want that.

Very, very, very conflicted I'm actually crying right now and I also need to write my letter to Ms Sabrina but every day I'm just so mentally unstable and in no condition to write things like that and the thought of it is making me cry

Today was supposed to be a good day but now that I've mulled over it, it feels like there's more bad than good even though I was so happy through the whole school day. My theory is being proven to be true which means you should just never appear and my life will be infinitely happier. Or maybe it's because today I tried and conquered. Why can't I stand up for myself more often?

Terrified for JC. Today's talk made me feel really inadequate.
❝c'mon get happy❞

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Got back history paper today and I kept laughing because my handwriting was god awful like oh my god what the fuck were you writing Cheryl WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING AND WRITING OMT

True, I was rushing even more when Lit and Geog students finished but to prove my point -



My godawful handwriting is the one on the top with lines in between because it was so big and I don't trust any teacher to be able to read it. Surprisingly IH was really neat compared to the trainwreck that was history and I somehow managed to have all the lack of details overlooked in favour of making links and somehow hitched a 19 and a decent 16 for essay so I'm content with my marks. Somehow I got an A2 for History (and likely for overall as well) so I'm cool with that because solid and secure marks are good for me. Still got an A1 for Chemistry I think after screwing the paper rather badly ah ha ha ha thank gosh for good quiz marks and practical marks that practically saved my entire year's worth of marks.

Okay I should really do that Chinese paper so I don't have to feel guilty hearing ymz wailing.
❝c'mon get happy❞

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I'm going to miss them buttloads. I understand they have to go, understand why they’ll be gone, no I don’t wish for a spin off, but I’m going to miss the hell out of them.
❝c'mon get happy❞

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found an old post.

when i feel really lonely, feel empty, feel like someone's missing,

I tell myself it's just my grandma.


her anniversary is coming around, now that i think about it.

thinking on a more positive note:

❝c'mon get happy❞

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if band and choir announce results on the same day there is going to be all kinds of awkward.

sick and tired of knowing that people are going to talk behind our backs, sick and tired of having to smile and say it's okay, sick and tired of watching everyone make us look like we suck.

only an nycb member will tell you that we played three hundred percent that day, that for a fleeting moment, i knew that it was perfect.
❝c'mon get happy❞

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rewatching laryngitis again because i love that episode.

"but seeing you, who you are with finn, how easy it is, it breaks my heart. -
- just want you to know that i'm going to work as hard as you to make this okay."
"you don't have work hard at anything, kurt. your job is to be yourself, and my job is to love you no matter what."
"i've missed you, dad."



i wish life was like this.
❝c'mon get happy❞

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So what happens when we break the combo of gold with honours thus far?

Extremely terrified by the chances for a third miracle.

I mean, I've been all positive attitude about it, but really, what happens if we fail?